LJ Idol Survivor Redemption

[bittyjane]

Since I saw Gary's e-mail on Friday, I've had a bit of back and forth with myself.  I wasn't super happy with the way I left the game, and so part of me is feeling a little bitter and isn't ready for the opportunity to come back.  I thought it would be a few more weeks.

Come on!  You enjoyed being part of a tribe.
Part of a tribe that voted me out?  I'll probably get voted out first week back anyway.
Maybe, but you won't know if you don't even try.

I don't need to be part of a competition to write.
Oh yeah? And what have you written since?
Well . . . I've been reading.  And building my crafting cabinet.  I can always homegame.
Yeah?  Like you have been?
Shut up.

We just re-opened the restaurant.  And it makes me tired.  It's just take out.  And take out sucks.
You suck.  Stop being a little bitch.
Dang, self.  Take it down a notch.
Sorry.  But you'll regret it if you don't even try.
*sighs* Probably.

Comments

[bsgsix]

The way you went out - that entire week with what happened - was so rough, and I felt so awful for you and for Luzon as a whole. Honestly, I was sickened. So I cannot imagine how you felt at ALL. I'm glad to see you wanting to come back, and despite that bitter feeling, fighting for a shot to do it all again. I wish you the very, very best of luck and think you are a wonderful person. *hugs*

[bittyjane]

It was such a rough week for the tribe. At the end of it, I had it in my head that because someone else was leaving voluntarily, I wouldn’t have to leave regardless of how the votes came out, which was wishful thinking on my part. The outcome was frustrating. I have no hard feeling for the tribe members, though. As I’m sure you’ve found, Luzon is nothing but supportive. The process itself and my own unfounded expectations just left a bad feeling in my mouth that I didn’t realize was still there until I saw the “Redemption” post.

[bsgsix]

I can only imagine, honestly. When the tribes shuffled and I was the only new person on Luzon, I was SO welcomed, and I felt great relief from that. I honestly felt like I WAS a part of that team. There was nothing negative that happened, and that's why I'm sad something negative (not from Luzon as a whole, but just the way the situation played out that one week) happened. If a player randomly says, "Meh, eff it, I'm out" - I'm sorry you had to go. I don't think anyone expected it.

Which is why I'm glad you've come back in to fight, and I hope you get a chance at this redemption for certain!